Here I am convening in my workspace. The very space that led
me to writing, the very space that had me wandering and wanting. It’s a square-shaped
desk, a mah-jong table to be particular that I’ve been using in my room at my
Mama’s house. It’s like a table catchall. Anyways, I am staring at the sea and
listening to the leaves sway here and there. Nat King Cole’s melody is also
playing, carrying me to an inspiring mood. There is a low pressure somewhere
and it has been nothing but gloomy with moderate winds this past few days.
Everyone is busy. Everyone is out. The room is mine and how
I am loving it.
In a day, I only get to have 2 hours of peace all for myself.
An hour has already passed by. Two hours is very precious for me. It’s from 10
am till noontime. The little girl is out at school during these hours. It’s the
only stretch I get to sit, get cozy, be sluggish and daydream like no other. At
times, I get to miss my single days when things I did daily was all mundane but
it made me pleased in a way or two. Today, all is different. Being a mother is
such a great accomplishment. Especially seeing your little one blossom to a
very beautiful and smart aleck that she is now. Being a mother doesn’t mean that
all is picturesque and impeccable. It unquestionably does have its low moments
too. I for one just had a recent low down as I call it. Being 6 months pregnant
and having a toddler who goes to school everyday is hard. Hormones are raging
and the little one is grumpy at times when not being attended to, and there is
our tiny baby growing in my belly who just understands. So much for my blah
blahs as I have fifty-eight minutes to be exact till she comes home from school
and tells me all her stories which I have to be 100 % attentive to…
This post is actually for my little one growing in my belly.
Telling the world what she will be.
My pregnancy has been so smooth sailing. Compared to my
first born where I had to lay down in bed for almost 8 months because I had a
complicated pregnancy. My second pregnancy is so great. I get to go out and
actually wear maternity clothes that I can pick myself. I can proudly show
everyone my baby bump.
We found out last month that our baby is going to be a girl.
We are all delighted about it and so is Julia. She is the one who would constantly
say that the baby I have in my tummy is a girl as opposing to everyone who
would always tell me that I am having a boy.
Getting crafty with garden blooms from Mama's garden.
We started calling her Isabel. I’ve always been charmed with
the name Isabel and so she’ll be called “Sabel”. Isabel means, “Consecrated to
God”. She just gave me a little somersault as I wrote her name. She has been so
good all throughout my pregnancy. Thank you dear Lord for her!
Unlike Julia, Isabel has been moving so much. She bounces
back when I caress my belly up and down, as if telling me she appreciates it.
When it is all still at night and everyone is asleep, I set my earphones on my
belly as I make her listen to the songs that Julia listened when she was in my
tummy too. It’s a playlist of all Classical Music and some rhymes. I know that
she loves it because it makes her calm and she stops moving so much.
My dearest Sabel, I cannot simply wait for you. I get
teary-eyed when I think about you and our growing family. You are a blessing
and you are God’s gift. Daddy and I will try our very best to be amazing
parents to you and your big sister. Julia has had her toys and DVD’s arranged
for you. She has lots and lots of stories to tell too. There is never a dull
moment with your big sister as she is like a bird that never stops gabbing. I
pray you will be as smart and beautiful as she is. She will teach you her
bedtime prayer and all her tactics. She is naughty at times but you need not
follow her.
Your BIG sister Julia helps me put this little beauty for us to take a photograph with.
Mama is trying to make floral pillowcases for you. I’ll make
everything beautiful as I welcome you out to the world. You will be loved and
cared for by everybody. Deep in my heart, I know that you are eager to come out
too. It won’t be that long anymore my dearest Sabel.
We will see you soon.
Love,
Mama
