On your fourth month, Clara.

Dearest Clara,

First of all, let me tell you how time really flies. I am so proud that the past four months have been beautiful, messy, tiresome, grueling at times and always worthwhile with you. I am so proud because we survived our time without a nanny. Our day to day experience is an adventure on its own. And from those days, I've mastered the change of you. A lot of changes to be exact. From your sleeping patterns, your favored sleeping position and the transformation of your gentle coos and ahhhs to major giggle and laughs which has been my favorite milestone of you this month. 

Your smile that keeps coming always keeps me going. Your chuckle that excites me more than it excites you. And your big eyes that twinkle and does all the wonders.

You've grown so much this month and you are so cute as you can be. 

You are the chunkiest baby amongst my daughters. 

Like Julia, you've got eyes that twinkle and just like Sabel, you are a sweet baby. Like your sisters, you love bathing time and it makes you happy. Please continue to be a good baby to Mama and let's survive our nanny-less lives together. 

 

Keep your beautiful smiles coming my love. 

Always and forever,

Mama

My three months with you.

This month has been nothing but great. Just in time as you turn 3 months old, you've started to show your interest on your surroundings and not just Mama's voice. Now, you start to look around and flash a smile or two. At times when I'm lucky, I get to witness your subtle giggle making me want to capture everything in my camera but as soon as I hit the video button, you automatically stop the gentle and shy smile of yours. 

You are also starting to use your senses. You are too cute sometimes I wanna hug you and squeeze you so tight. 

You've gained a lot and I can't believe that it was just 3 months ago that you came out all fragile and precious and so tiny. Now you are so round and full of life. 

You've remained my calm and peace in a day's hustle and bustle. 

You have been the most patient and understanding baby ever, never wanting, always radiating love within. 

You are my everyday companion when the room is quiet and when no one is around but us. 

I laugh at myself when I see your face listening to my comical self when I talk to friends or family on the phone. You seem so apprehensive at such a little age. 

Your sisters cannot simply wait to play with you. I have to remind them everyday how to be gentle with you around. And Mama can't wait for you three to be walking hand in hand as we make our afternoon and morning strolls around the village. 

 

Today and for some little time, I will contain the littleness of you because time has always been fast and I still want you to remain my tiny one. 

I love you to the moon and back, Clara!

Love,

Mama