This morning I had to go out and feel the sun on my skin. I needed to feel something new because this past few days has been heart wrenching and tormenting to say the least.
A little sunshine is always good. Good for the mind, soul and heart.
Oh the heart! The heart that needs mending.
If only I had supernatural powers. If only I can rewind the past and get all the bad elements that slowly unfold.
If only I can bring back Vino. Alive and breathing... if only.
My heart bleeds for my sister and my best friend and her husband who has gone so much these past few weeks. So much is an understatement.
He came out loosely swaddled in hospital garments looking like a newborn baby only he isn't breathing anymore. I asked my cousin if I could carry my nephew just because. I slowly scooped him out of her hands and held him close to me as tears kept falling from my eyes. He was big and his hands were fat and I held them both.
There was sadness for most days.
The next time I ever held my nephew was when I had to transfer him into a wooden box fit for a young baby as we lay him into his final rest. This time, his fat fingers were ice cold and he shrank a tad bit. I lay him on a monogrammed receiving blanket and swaddled him tight with a light blue rosary on his fat little hands.
It was time to say goodbye.
Oh Vino! Please pray for us all here on Earth. Please watch over your Papa and Mama who has longed for your presence. Please let them feel that you are okay in God's loving embrace.
To know more about my sister's story, please visit her site https://lifeaftersalvino.tumblr.com/ and show some love.
