Dearest Clara,
Over the past 30 days, I've come to
know you a little - a little but enough to understand your likes and
dislikes.
Let me begin to tell you how grateful
I am to the heavens above for taking care of us - For healing us both fast and fully.
For giving me milk on the second day of your life, which sounds so impossible
but yes, because I prayed, so hard, there was milk for you.
Because a lot of people were praying
for us both, we had the healing that was so fast, I am beyond thankful to
Jesus. We both came out of that experience so strong. You see little girl, you
were believed to come out by February, instead, you came out way too early,
ending 2016 with a bang. I will certainly not forget our first few hours together
because it was the first time I experienced labor pains.
Taking care of you has been so satisfying. I feel like I'm
starting to become a pro at motherhood. You make mama duties seem so easy-going.
Amongst all my three babies, you are the one I am mostly
hands-on with minimal help from family. I applauded myself for not worrying
anyone for our first 30 days together. I settled with my motherly instinct in nurturing
you and I simply cannot believe that it’s been 30 days.
I find myself staring at you always, carefully examining
you, from head to toe and vice versa. I especially love it when we hold hands;
I feel that there is a bond beyond measure, one that only a mother can tell.
I am always caught up sinking in your baby smell, taking it
all in for what seems like milk, body wash and powder all together. The scent
of milk from your breath is so pure. The smell is so divine, so honest and
sincere.
I watch you sensibly as you sleep and do your hourly
stretches, like every mother, I am always in admiration looking at you. You
make the sleepless nights seem less tiring.
Time has a way of telling us what truly matters and what is
important. I have realized that I am so lucky to be a mama to you and your
sisters.
Let me tell you how I love your energy that is so calming and
constantly at peace. I haven’t heard you let out a loud cry ever yet nor did I
have trouble putting you to sleep. Its always easy breezy with you Dear Clara.
And I will forever give thanks to God for giving me a very good baby to deal
with.
You’ve been nothing but love and light, my precious angel. I
wish, hope and pray that you will grow up keen like Julia and as cheerful as
Sabel. I know that time will just pass and before we know it, you girls will be
having the time of your lives. But for now, let me relish the moment and savor
all the memories of you as a baby. Let me have the sleepless nights for now,
let me teach you how to pray and show you how it works most of the time, let me
tell you how precious and gentle you are and let me tell you how beautiful the
world is and that you too shall explore it soon…
I love you to the moon and back, Clara!
Love,
Mama
Thank you to my cousin Liane for taking lovely photos of Clara.
